Jonah Andrew Farrer

I WENT TO SIXFLAGS THIS WEEK AND I HAD A AWESOME TIME BUT YOU WERE ON MY MIND HARD! AND I REMEMBERED HOW WHEN ALL OF US WOULD GO TO SIXFLAGS OR ANY FAIRS AS KIDS ME & YOU WOULD BE PAIRED UP TOGETHER! NOBODY WANTED TO RIDE THE SPINNING RIDES OR TEACUPS WITH US FOR SURE! I THOUGHT ABOUT HOW YOU ALWAYS TOOK CARE OF ME EVEN THOUGH YOU WERE JUST AS SICK AS ME. YOU WOULD GO SPEND YOUR LAST DOLLAR TO GET ME A DRINK TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER. YOU WERE THE BEST BROTHER AND FRIEND! I HOPE TO GOD YOU KNEW I FELT THAT WAY! YOU ARE ALWAYS WITH ME JONAH! I SEE YOU EVERYWHERE AND IN EVERYTHING I DO! IT'S SOMETIMES HARD TO SEE YOUR PICTURES ONLY BECOUSE IT HURTS TO KNOW THAT YOU SHOULD STILL BE HERE NOT JUST A PICTURE OR A MEMORY TO US ALL! I AM TRYING O BE AS FORGIVING , LOVING, CARING AND ACCEPTING AS YOU WERE! LOSING YOU HAS MADE ME SEE MY MISTAKES THAT I MADE WHILE YOU WERE ALIVE! I NOW LET MY LOVE ONES KNOW JUST HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO ME & I TRY TO LEAVE THEM WITH A KIND WORD. I HOPE I TOLD YOU I LOVED YOU BEFORE I HUNG UP THE PHONE THE LAST TIME WE TALKED. I CAN'T BRING MYSELF TO ERASE THE VOICE MAIL YOU LEFT ME ON MY CELL PHONE THE FRIDAY BEFORE YOU RECIEVED YOUR WINGS! I LISTEN TO YOUR VOICE OFTEN. I WILL NEVER LET YOUR MEMORY DIE! YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN.

I have so many good and bad memories of you, but everyone are as vivid as the days they happened. I spent Tuesday and Wednesday with Sissy. We went to six flags and white water. We had so much fun. Me and Sissy stayed up all night shaing memories of you. I found out why you wouldn't ride the rides with me at the fair. lol. I'll keep that between me you and Sissy. I know I should have wrote here sooner, but it has just been so hard. You were so close to being back in my life and I was so happy, then you were gone and its just been really hard. I wish things could have worked out the way we know they should have. I wish I could turn back the time, and do a few things differently... Anywho!  I'm trying to think of my favorite memory of you, but they are all my favorites. Every time I smell Tommy Hillfiger, see some one wearing a brown belt with black shoes, eat a mushroom swiss burger, see an old montecarlo, etc.... I think about you. I have decided not to name a favorite memory, because I hope one day to see you in heaven, and I will tell you then what my best memory of us was. Until then I will be down here helping you keep Sissys back and provide her with a shoulder and advice if she wants it or not. She misses you very much, and so do I. I know you would like this picture because it takes you back to the begining, back to the days when things were great! Rest easy cuz you have a lot coming at you later......see you when we get there. Save me a good spot. Goodnight Jonah.

Well this time last year, we were taking our daughter to her first fair....she was still to young for the rides but we got her a bunny. I started cryn saturday, we took her back and she ran straight to the bunny's and wanted one. She has begged for one every since. It made me think about how you told me that I was stupid for getting the last rabbit groomed at the Vet's office. And how when it died, I buried it without tellin you, and you had this sad story about how the bunny got out of the cage and wanted to go home because you thought that the dogs had got it. Jonah I love you still and I dont think I will ever be happy. You were soul mate and now your gone. Jaycee still ask where her daddy is. She knows your in heaven and I hope you see her when she waves and blows you kisses. I wish you could have seen her ridin the rides and pitching a fit not to get off.  Jonah we love you and miss you so much!!

Today is so hard, I miss you so much! Me and Jaycee are going to get Caleb's birthday in a few minutes. It made me think about last Christmas when we were talking about Chritmas presents and trying to budget. You wanted to give Caleb $100, and you did everything in your power to get it. Even though we were unable then I know that in your heart that is what you wanted. I wish you were here to go to his party Sunday. It is going to be so hard without u there. I love you still Jonah, and dont want anyone else!!!!!! Got some good news for you, me and jaycee are moving back to Birmingam, we will be closer to your family!! I kow that will make you happy!!

It's Halloween today and I keep thinking of when we were little kids & daddy would take me and Jonah around our neighborhood to trick or treat.Jason & Cain always went with their friends instead. I remember standing at the end of our driveway waiting on dad and Jonah taught me the song "Trick or treat smell my feet give me something good to eat if you don't I don't care you can eat my underwear" . It was so funny to us whenever we sang that song to people when they open their door until Daddy heard us and got so embaressed that he threaten to take us back home and spank us if we ever sang it again.I have now passed that song on to my child.I can't wait until she sings it tonight when my dad goes with us trick or treating. She sings it all year long. I miss you bubba more than I can put into words. You may not be here for me to hug,hear or see but Jonah you will forever be a huge part of me. Love you and miss you brother. Your lil Jaycee was the cutest supergirl this year we all wish you could of been there to see how much fun she had.

Yesterday was our daughter's first birthday. It breaks my heart that you are not here. I know that you are with her and I ever single step, but it is not the same as you being here. It breaks my heart that you will not be here to sing her Happy Birthday for the first time. I miss you and want you here. Your were my one and only.....GOD....I wish you would COME BACK!!!!!

 

I LOVE YOU!!! JAYCEE LOVES YOU!!

I only met Jonah a couple of times but I always thought he was such a nice person.  I remember one time we were out at Ray and Naomi's (Of course I can't remember what the occassion was) and he was there with his beautiful baby girl.  I remember everyone who was there wanted to hold her.  People were not wanting to give her up to other people. As usual I was there observing everyone and everything that was going on.  Then Jonah came and stood by me with the baby and said "I know you want to hold her to because you've been watching all afternoon."  I kind of laughed and said yes.  I realized this day how important and how much he loved her.  I also knew that he was soooo proud of her and wanted to share her with everyone.  I know he will be missed very much by everyone and may God watch over everyone who touched his life and give them the strength they need to make their days a little more peaceful that he is indeed in a better place.

I don't often get serious cuz my goofyness rarely allows me to. I just wanted to let you know you were a damn good friend and I respected the hell out of you man. I have never known a man that worked as hard as you and never asked for anything in return. I keep alot of emotions of mine on the inside. I never let on to Naomi when she said that you wanted me to your Best Man at your wedding. Outside I just said, " That's cool.", but honestly I felt very honored that you would even consider me for that. It meant alot to me, almost as if I didn't deserve it. You were one of a kind and will be sorely missed Jonah. I always new I had to have my game on if you were going to be aroud cuz I knew there was going to be some major joking goin on. I will miss that special laughter only you could bring out in me. I never had any siblings growing up, but ever since I met you you made me feel part of your family and could actually feel a brothers bond with you. Thank you for taking the time to play with my daughter and making her laugh. She misses you and asks where you are time to time. Thank you for inviting me with open arms into your life. It was a wild ride and I wouldn't have changed a thing. P.S. If you were still around I would still be playin pranks on ya every time I got the chance. Hope to have that opportunity again one day. Miss ya and love ya, Ray

Jonah there are so many memories that I have, and all compacted into two years. I remember when we 1st meet. You were over the kitchen at The Foundry, and I wanted a piece of bread that wasn't hard, so you went and gave me a stale roll. Just as I bit into it, to find the mold. I knew then we were meant to be together. Then after we started talking you would find any ecusse to come to the girls dorm. You thought that you were going to be funny and throw a frog on us girls while we were outside. So you told Gaye that you had something for her and when you opened your hand, the frog jumped out and I grabed it. I started chasing you in the back and threw the poor little frog and smashed it in your face. LOL You were so shocked that someone would do that to you. Those were the good times.  You used to could make me so mad, like that time me and Sissy were walking between the cars and you said WOW I have never seen two cars get buffed at the same time.  You were so mean.... My favorite memory though is when we found out I was pregnant. You jumped and yelled so much....all I could do was cry. I have never seen you so happy. I also never seen you jump that high. You were calling everyone and noone would answer. And you wound up and having to tell my mom because I was crying to much. Well baby there is many more but that is enough for now. WE LOVE U!!

We had so many great times, its hard to just think of a few to share. Like how u, me, & naomi would be riding down the road in that beat up black car singing "how do i live". Or how u let me & naomi drive your car & we locked the keys in it, so we busted the window out with a big flower pot! LOL U were soo pissed! I will never forget that day me & naomi were fighting over a sandwich, & u threw it out the window! We were so retarded! Just recently u were outside teaching gage how to beat up people & make bombs! lol I wish we could go back to that day. I would trade anything to go back for just a minute. Even though we fought like cats & dogs, u were like my brother, & i wouldnt take not one single thing back that we ever done. I miss u so much.

Jonah you were the freaking best. We had some good times. Like when Final Destination came out we rented it and sat there for over an hour and a half rewinding it back to the really cool parts. Laughing till we cried. It was great. I remember playing rummy and you getting mad cause I was kickin your butt. You'd change the way we were playing just so you could win. How you would always be on me about acting like a girl then when I'd let out a really manly burp you would complement me and say it was a good one. You know we lost touch, due to outside issues, for about 3 years. I finally couldn't take it anymore I just missed you so damn much I looked up your dads number in the phone book called and left my name and number with Cain and asked for you to call if you wanted. To my complete and happy amazement you called the very next day. When I heard your voice I damn near cried you said God Jennifer I missed you so much. You have absolutely no idea how much that meant to me or how utterly terrified I was that you didn't want anything to do with me anymore since I was a part of your other life. It has been a great honor to know you and that you considered me a friend. Even if you did like to stand me up to go fishing. I will love you always and forever treasure the time we had together.

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@ I keep thinking about the time when we were teenagers and "somehow" we got the munchies real bad! And once we got home we were trying to be so quiet and sneek in we made it past mom and dads room no problem and into the kitchen. And there sat the biggest most delicious looking chocolate pie we had ever seen sitting in the middle of the table with a note on it saying "DON'T TOUCH FOR CHURCH SUPPER". And of course being the hetherns we were we tore into that thang with our hands! I can remember how the pie was all over your face and fingers as you smiled at me knowing we were gonna be in big trouble in the morning! I'll never forget being woke up by mama yelling out "DOOOOON.... look what they have done! You still had little crumbs and chocolate on your shirt and face! You were so busted! You were so fun to hangout with. I Miss you so much Jonah!

Jonah I have so so many memories of you and will cherish each and every one with every new day that comes my way.We may not have always saw eye to eye but i know we always saw heart to heart.You certainly made my life more interesting.I dont think there was anyone in this world that you had more fun aggravating and from what you told others thats because i was the only one that would stand up to you and fight back lol..I remember the time i was frying hamburgers and you just kept on and on walking up behind me and hitting me in the back of the head oh yeah and pulling on my ears lol after about 20 mins you reached your goal of pissing me off (man were you pleased with yourself lol)and i warned you that if you did it again i would burn you with my spatula (and you knew i would)but what did you do? you pulled my damn ear again then stuck your arm out to me laughing and said you wont do it so.... i did it ....now anyone else would have been fighting mad but not you as a matter of fact you got excited like a little school boy.man i loved fighting with you.I guess you could say we had a twisted kind of relationship but i would not have traded it for anything in the world.I will never forget the last time i saw you... caleb and i had to meet you,jenna and matt to have caleb fitted for a tux...caleb had just came back into my life after not being in my life for over 5 years and he didnt know his size when the lady ask him so the lady not knowing the circumstances says to me mom i bet you know what size he wears a mom always knows...well i had no clue and took off out the door crying but you were right behind me holding me and telling me "its ok you have him back in your life now and im gonna make sure it stays that way" You then started asking me if i wanted you to go beat that old bats ass lmao..needless to say you had me feeling better in know time.ohh jonah i miss you so much you hold a place in my heart that no one else will ever touch..and i will forever tressure each and every one of the many memories i have of you......I LOVE YOU MAY YOU REST IN PEACE

 

ps...if you were here right now i would have to smack you in your big head

It was only a couple of weeks ago when we were all together at the beach. You were busy and determined to find the perfect sea shells for Jaycee. I handed you a small baggie to collect sand in for her since it was yours,Jennas and Jaycees first trip there as an family. I can see the waves crashing all around you as you dug deep in to the sand. I love how little things like that was so important to you bubba.